Chapter 13 - Make a Splash

Nicole

I didn’t oversleep this time. I was actually eager to hear from Victor about last night’s date. I went to bed early last night and didn’t stay up late enough to call him. I hope he didn’t screw it up. I’d hate to have to do damage control when we swap back.

After showering and getting dressed, I found my phone sitting on top of the open Victoria’s Secrets Catalog on the desk. I grabbed it and dialed the number for my old phone.

After two rings, I could hear my old voice answer the phone in a chipper tone. “Good morning Nicole,” Victor said.

“How was last night?” I said, laying down on the bed and staring up at the ceiling.

“It went well.” he said. “Pizza and video games. Nothing big.”

“Pizza and video games?” I said. “But I don’t play video games. I don’t really eat pizza.”

“Well, I think he enjoyed it.”

“Ugh. You’re really killing my reputation, Vic.”

“You’ll be fine. Your reputation will be fine. We both had fun. That’s what you wanted right? To repair and maintain your relationship?”

“You’re supposed to be maintaining it, not setting up an impossible standard for me to live up to.”

“Impossible standard? It’s just pizza and games. Sorry. I just wanted to have fun too.”

“Vic, I didn’t mean it like that. Did you have fun?”

“I did.”

“Well I suppose that’s one of us.”

“Well, what do you typically do for fun, Nicole? Neither of us have Friday classes, why don’t we do something for you tomorrow. My treat.”

“Vic, I don’t want to go and have fun in this body. I just want to swap back.”

“OK fine. We’ll dedicate tomorrow to swapping back, then.”

“Thank you.”

* * *

Victor

My Thursday classes actually sped by. Steve didn’t talk my head off as much, maybe that’s because I brought up “my boyfriend” in casual conversation. That was enough to remind him that he’s barking up the wrong tree. Each of my classes reminded me that I needed to buy books for class. Maybe I should add that to my agenda for tomorrow.

When I got home to Nicole and Alexis’s apartment, I crashed onto the couch and closed my eyes. Ahh, a nice quiet apartment. I will certainly miss this when we swap back.

Alexis walked through the door. “Hi Vic.” she said continuing on into her room. Just then my phone rang. It was Tyler. So much for a quiet afternoon.

“Hey Tyler.” I answered.

“Hey, Nikki.” he said. “I just wanted to say I had a great time last night.”

I decided to continue his small talk. “Me too, Tyler. We should do it again sometime.”

“I was just wondering if you and your friends were coming out to the pool party today.”

So I guess he had a reason to call other than to hear my voice. “Oh - the pool party.” I said. “I totally forgot about that.”

“Did someone say pool party?” I heard Alexis’s voice come from her room.

I turned to Alexis. “Yeah - Tyler’s roommate is inviting us to a pool party this afternoon.”

“Yes, let’s go!” she said. “You should text Mads.”

“Well, I guess we’re coming.” I said to Tyler.

“Great!” he said. “I’ll tell Josh. I can’t wait to see you. Bye, Nic.” 

“Bye.” I said, hanging up, before turning to Alexis. “I don’t have anything to wear.”

“Girl, I know for a fact you have plenty to wear.” she said.

I was afraid of that. I wrote a text message to Madison. “Pool Party. North Campus Pool.” I didn’t know what else to say. Should I add emoji? I sent it as is.

I found the bathing suit drawer. I don’t know how I missed it originally. I pulled out a teal bikini top and held it by a string. It’s so small. I found its matching bottoms in the drawer. That was so small too.

My phone buzzed. Madison replied. “I’ll be right over!”

I got naked. I pulled on the bikini bottoms first. I was right - these are small.

I walked out into the hallway. “Lexi, I don’t know if I can wear these. They’re so small. They cover less than my panties. My ass cheeks have never felt more exposed.”

She looked at me and chuckled. “They’re perfect, Vic. But you can’t go to the pool without a top.”

I turned red and returned to my room to retrieve the bikini top. It took me a few minutes, but I managed to get the bikini top on and adjusted it so it held “the girls” up. I’m not sure I’ll ever get used to this, but it’s at least becoming easier. I didn’t even need to ask Alexis for help.

I returned to Alexis’s room. “I feel so naked.” I said. “Surely I can’t walk around campus like this right?”

“Then get a cover up.” she said. “I know Nicole has a really cute cover up hanging up. You should wear that today.”

I returned to the room again and browsed the dresses that were hanging up. I wasn’t entirely sure the difference between a dress and a cover up. Until I found it. It was lighter, and less form fitting. It was light blue with pink and yellow designs on it. The material was so light and almost see-through, and had a very beachy feel to the design. I pulled that over my head and checked the mirror. OK, Alexis is right, this is cute. I grabbed a pair of baby-blue flip flops and slid those on.

I found a pair of sunglasses in a drawer and put them on and looked in the mirror. Poolside Barbie status achieved.

I heard the apartment door open and Madison’s voice greet Alexis. I returned to the common area to greet her as well. 

Madison was wearing a low cut tank top and short shorts over her bathing suit. Alexis was wearing a green cover up. Not as cute as mine, but definitely flattering. 

“Girl.” Madison said, looking at me. “Let us look like the hot ones for once.”

“This?” I said. “I wasn’t really trying.”

“That bikini is smoking hot.” she said. “I’m so glad that you finally decided to wear it out in public.”

What? Nicole has never worn this out in public?  I heard Alexis giggling from behind me and I turned to her and shot daggers at her with my eyes.

“Let’s get ready to go.” Alexis said, smiling. We each got a beach towel from our closet and I found a beach bag to put my stuff in. We then all headed out to the pool party.

* * *

Tyler

Josh had me helping him set up for the pool party. He put me in charge of handing out flyers to arriving students with his name and his campaign’s platform. 

I don’t know how I keep getting roped into this. I helped a dorm neighbor create a website and flyers- one time, and suddenly I’m part of his never ending campaign for the next thing he’s running for. Maybe it’s because, despite his constant teasing, he’s actually a really good friend and has always been there for me. When I agreed to have him as a roommate I was worried that I was going to get sucked into his political vortex. 4 days into the semester so far, I feel that concern was valid.

Either way, it’s not so bad. I agreed to such an interactive task so I could take my mind off of last night. But greeting people and telling people to take a flyer, check out Josh’s website, and faking a smile didn’t really work this time.

Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed last night. When I think back to the events of my date with Nicole, I smiled. But something was nagging at me. Her change of personality had me worried I did something bad.

When there was a break in the stream of students coming into the pool grounds, I found my roommate, arranging the table of snacks. 

“Hey Josh.” I said.

“What's up?”

“I think I did something bad.”

“What did you do? It’s nothing we can’t fix.”

“Not about today. About Nicole.”

“Oh.” he said. “Then tell me about it.” If Josh was annoyed by my bringing up Nicole again, he didn’t show it. His warm outgoing nature is one of the reason’s we’re friends. It’s certainly an asset for his political aspirations too.

“On Sunday night, I made a wish that Nicole was my perfect girlfriend. I didn't think anything of it until last night. Her personality had completely changed.”

“And you think your... wish... is the cause?”

“I’m not 100% sure, but I’m highly suspicious.”

“What granted your wish?”

“What do you mean?”

“Did you wish on a candle or a shooting star? Did you pray?”

“Nothing,” I said. “I said my wish out loud to nothing or no one in particular.”

“I don’t know, Ty. I'm a religious man. I believe in miracles. But what you’re saying sounds far fetched. People just don’t change overnight. You’re an engineer. Have you tested your hypothesis? Have you tried making another wish?”

“I haven’t.” I then saw them enter the pool area. Nicole, and her two friends. Oh wow, Nicole is looking very sexy today. “Excuse me.” I said to Josh.

“Hi ladies!” I called out to the three of them. “I’m glad you could make it.” I handed them a flyer. “Don’t forget to vote for Josh Rivers for Student Body President!”

“Hi Tyler.” Alexis said. Mads smiled, and Nicole smiled while avoiding eye contact. 

“Nikki, you look amazing.” I said. “I don’t recognize that swimsuit. Is it new?”

Alexis and Madison continued walking and giggling.

“I should go follow them.” Nicole said.

“Wait.” I said. “About last night.”

She was silent, interested in hearing what I had to say.

“I know you told me to slow down. And I’m sorry if I’m pushing you too fast.”

“It’s OK, Tyler.” she replied. “It just took me by surprise.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah.” she said, clearly trying to get off this topic.

I reached out and rubbed her shoulders. She smiled. I liked that she was smiling. Maybe she’s right and she was just taken by surprise. I considered going in for a kiss, but decided to not press my luck.

“Go ahead with your friends, I’ll join you in a bit.” Our eyes finally locked and she blushed and smiled. Her smile made me smile too.

As she walked away, that guilty feeling came back. She’s still acting strange around me. 

As I watched the girls leave me to walk towards the pool, Josh came up to me and stood beside me. “She does have a nice ass. For a girl.”

I rolled my eyes. “You know, you need to work on your political tact. You can’t say stuff like that at your own political events.” 

“Which is why I need you as my campaign manager, Ty” He smiled.

“I’ll think about it.” I said to get off this topic. “So back to our previous conversation.” 

“Yes. Your so-called ‘wish’. You need to test it.”

I looked at the 3 girls searching the pool area for deck chairs. “OK. I wish Nicole was 5 inches taller.”

We both watched Nicole for a few seconds.

“She doesn’t look any taller.” Josh observed. “Do you actually want her taller?”

“No.” I replied. “I think she’s the perfect height for me.”

“Then why did you wish for that? That’s likely why it didn’t work. Maybe you need to wish for something that you actually want.”

“OK. We’ll keep it simple. I wish for Nicole to look at me and come running up to me, give me a big kiss and tell me that we both are going to put Sunday’s fight behind us.”

Just then, Nicole looked up at me. Josh gasped. Nicole smiled and waved. Then she returned to finding chairs with her friends.

“Whoa.” Josh said. “For a second there I thought that was going to work.”

“Me too.” I said. “Maybe this wish thing is stupid. Or maybe I was only given one wish.”

“Nah.” he said. “Wishes always come in threes.” He patted my shoulder and walked away to greet some students who came to the party, leaving me standing there with my thoughts.

* * *

Victor

The three of us found pool chairs to put our stuff down. Immediately, my friends took off their clothes to reveal their swimsuits. 

Alexis, sensing my timidness came over to me and whispered. “It’s OK, Vic. You got this.”

I bit my lip and decided to join them, pulling off my cover up. Alexis smiled and gave me a “thumbs up.”

I could feel a lot of eyes on me checking me out. I’m not used to this kind of attention. I saw Madison and Alexis putting sunblock on each other. I might need to get in on that action. Last thing I want is a crispy Vic. 

I retrieved my own sunscreen from the bag and started to coat my arms and legs. I should get one of my friends to get my back.

Just then, my phone buzzed from within the beach bag I shoved it in.

I looked at the phone and covered the sun’s glare from the screen and my sunscreen fingerprints. It was a message from Nicole.

“Where are you?”

I wiped my hands on my towel and typed back. “At the north campus pool.” I turned my attention back to my friends. Alexis, can you do my back?

“One moment.” she said.

“I can do it.” Madison chimed in, taking my sunscreen.

I sat down in the chair with my back to Madison.  

“Take your hair.” she said.  Right.  I have long hair.  

I grabbed my hair and draped it forward away from my back.  

She took some lotion and lathered up my back. Ooo, she’s massaging my shoulders too. Lower. Lower. Oh yeah, that’s the spot. Her hands ran down my sides.  Apparently she found an erogenous zone near my hips I didn't know I had and suddenly I got turned on.  I crossed my legs out of habit.

When she was done putting lotion on my back she asked.  “Do me?”

Do her.  Yes.  Wait no.  I need to get my head out of the gutter.  Clearly I’m still attracted to Madison.  I’m not sure what this means yet.

I squired lotion onto her back and started rubbing it in.  I tried to return the same massage she gave me.  Did I just hear a low moan from her.  But we’re out at the pool in public.  I quickly finished up before I got turned on anymore.

“Thank you, Nic.” she said flashing me a great big sexy smile.

After that, I sat down on the chair and the three of us sunbathed. After a few minutes of getting sun, I heard a girl’s voice.

“Hi Nicole.”

I turned to see my visitor. I didn’t recognize her.

“So I met your doppelganger.” she said.

“My what?” I said, confused at what she was talking about.

“Nick. The total cutie with the same name as you. I’m in his class Tuesdays and Thursdays.”

“Oh Nick!” I said. This must be Nicole’s former roommate. Wait. Did she think I was cute? I checked her out. She was wearing an orange and blue floral bikini. She was attractive. Not as attractive as me, or not as attractive as Madison, but maybe that “girl next door” look that was totally my type. If I was still in a guy’s body that is.

“Yeah. He said you two were friends. I saw him today for class too.”

“Yeah, we see each other… fairly frequently.” I then recalled that Nicole said that she thought this girl didn’t think highly of her. If that’s true, then why is she talking to me now?

“Cool.” she said. “What do you think of him?”

“Of Nick?” I said. What do I say here? Who is she interested in? Victor or Nicole? “He’s a great guy.” Not to toot my own horn of course. “I mean. If I wasn’t dating Tyler...”

She laughed. “Of course. But I bet it would be weird dating a guy with your same name.”

“That too.” I chuckled.

“There’s something about him.” she said. “Something mysterious, yet something warm. He notices more than other guys notice.”

Oh shit. She’s into Nicole’s version of Victor. Not mine. I’m going to have to tell Nicole she's got an admirer. I smiled at this. “Are you going to ask him out?” 

“Should I? Or should I wait to have him ask me?”

“Do it. Totally ask him out” I said smiling. “I bet that would make Nick’s day.”

“Thanks Nicole.” she said smiling. “It was good seeing you again.” She walked away and I resumed my sunbathing by closing my eyes. 

I heard Alexis chuckle. “I can’t wait to hear how that goes.”

Around 5 minutes later a shadow stood over me. I opened my eyes to see Nicole standing over me. “Nick, you’re blocking the sun.” I stated.

“What are you doing at the pool?” she said. She looked down at my bikini, did a double take, and shook her head.

“Sunbathing.” I replied.

“We’re supposed to be…” she noticed that she had Alexis’s and Madison’s attention. They were looking right at her. She whispered to me. “We’re supposed to be looking for the totum.”

I sat up and whispered. “But we don’t know if it was a totem at all. We had absolutely nothing in common the night we swapped. It’s a dead end.”

“So you’re giving up?”

“No, That’s not what I said. I’m not giving up. Tomorrow. We have all day.”

“You’re procrastinating.”

“Nick, I get it. You’re not having any fun. We’ve been given a once in a lifetime opportunity to see how the other half lives. I’m actually enjoying myself. You should be too.”

“Do you even want to swap back, Vicky?”

“I do, but we’re not swapping back today. So we should enjoy today.”

“I get it.” she said. “You’ve been under a self-imposed isolation for the past 3 years. You’ve been wallowing away in your apartment, and now that you’re in the sun and having fun with your - my friends, you don’t want to go back.”

“I didn’t say that.”

She didn’t respond. I could tell she was still upset.

I scanned the crowd at the pool looking for Nicole’s former roommate. I found her sitting on the edge of the pool with her legs dangling in. “So that girl you told me about. Your former roommate. She came to me saying that she has a crush on you. She’s sitting over there. Why don’t you go talk to her?”

“Kayla? She has a crush on me? You mean she has a crush on you. When we swap back you can totally have her.”

“No. She doesn’t have a crush on Victor. She has a crush on Nick. You.”

Nicole looked toward the pool where I just pointed. “She does? Me? But I treated her so badly when we were roommates.”

“Well, maybe you’re more attentive to her now.”

“We had coffee again today. We talked mostly about her, I listened and gave her advice.”

“See, you should date her instead of that girl Stephanie.”

“I can’t date my former roommate. That’s just weird.”

“OK fine. But Nicole. Listen. Go back to my place, get some board shorts and come back and have some fun. Just try it? OK?”

“OK.” She nodded her head and left.

“What was that all about?” Madison asked. “You both were whispering but I could make out that Victor sounded upset.”

“I told him to get his bathing suit and join us.” I said lying back down, smiling.

“Nicole, you’re doing a good thing.” she added. “That Victor will come out of his shell eventually.”

I let out a quiet chuckle to myself. The irony of it all. Me of all people having to get Nicole of all people to have some fun.

Another shadow got in my way. Ugh. Now what?

“Hey Lexi.” a male voice said. Wait. I know that voice. I got up to see my freshman year roommate looking at my current roommate. 

“Hi Brandon!” Alexis said getting up from her chair and giving him a hug.

She’s dating THAT Brandon!

“Oh Brandon, this is my roommate and my other best friend, Nicole.” she said.

Brandon looked at me and had the look of recognition. “Oh Hi. Yeah, I think we’ve met before.” He raised his eyebrows and smirked at me. I hated that smirk. Wait - how does he recognize me?

“Ladies”, Alexis said, addressing Madison and I. “Brandon and I are going to grab a bite to eat. See you later.”

As Alexis and Brandon walked away, Madson turned to face me. “She didn’t even invite us.” she huffed.

I watched them walk out of the pool area and into the distance and I was left wondering how he was able to recognize me. Maybe he knows Nicole. I may have to ask her about that. All I know is that two years later I still want nothing to do with that asshole Brandon. I was also left with conflicting feelings. When he smirked at me, I wanted to punch him in the face. But also, he’s dating Alexis? She could do so much better. How do I tell her to dump him?

* * *

Nicole

Victor’s apartment wasn’t far from the north pool, so I was able to run to his apartment, find a pair of swim trunks, sandals and a towel and make my way back to the pool in 25 minutes.

Upon my return, Victor and Madison were still sunbathing. Alexis wasn’t there anymore and her stuff was gone. 

I sat down in the vacant deck chair and pulled off the t-shirt I was wearing. It felt weird to be topless so I kept my arms folded around my chest. My chest was so white, geez, when was the last time Victor got any sun? I then glanced at Victor sunbathing in my body. Sure, he hasn’t tanned in 3 years and now that he’s in my body, he’s all in. 4 days as a woman and he’s already wearing the skimpiest bikini in my drawer, I can’t believe he wore that out. That was a gift from Mads when I spent a week at her parents house last summer. Anyway, I needed sunscreen or I’d burn. I felt weird asking if I could borrow my own. “Nicole, I couldn’t find sunscreen back at the apartment. Can I borrow… yours?”

Victor rolled over and pulled my sunscreen out of my beach bag. “I’m glad you came back.” he said, handing me the plastic bottle.

I waited until no one was looking then I unfolded my arms and started to apply the sunscreen on my chest when Tyler came up to us. Tyler, my boyfriend. Tyler, who I haven’t seen in 4 days. Tyler, who came and knelt down beside Victor, who was pretending to be me. 

“Hey babe.” he said to VIctor. “I’m finished handing out flyers, so I can spend time with you.”

He should be spending time with me.

“Oh Tyler.” Victor said, sitting up. “I wanted to introduce you to my friend... Victor.”

What? Victor, what are you doing?

Tyler looked at me. It’s the first time I’ve looked at Tyler all week. I missed him. He extended his hand. 

“Hi Tyler.” I said, shaking it, holding onto his hand longer than a guy probably should.

“So Victor…” Victor started. “...is part of a shadow program that we’ve been doing for a few days. It’s part of a business college and art college outreach program.”

“Hi.” he said and he let go of my hand.

I expected Tyler to say something to me, but he instead returned his attention to Victor. “Let’s go into the pool.”

I expected Victor to deny his request. But he surprised me when he stood up and said, “That sounds like fun.”

It does? I watched Victor and my boyfriend walk to the pool. Out of my periphery, I noticed Mads looking at me. 

“What’s up?” I asked.

She gave me a sympathetic grin. “Sorry, Victor.” She laid her head back down.

Sorry? Did she think I was jealous? Well. I suppose I am. But not the way she thinks.

“DId you want to join them?” she asked.

“I suppose.” I said, trying hard not to sound too eager.

Madison got up from the deck chair and we walked together to the pool. I was keeping an eye on Tyler and Victor. Near them in the pool two couples were chicken fighting. One couple won as the other couple fell into the water. As Madison and I reached the steps of the pool, I saw the winning couple talking to Tyler and Victor. What were they saying?

I saw Tyler go underwater and suddenly Victor rose up out of the water on Tyler’s shoulders. No. They. Aren’t.

“Wow.” Madsion said to me. “They must’ve really made up the other night. Nicole hates this game.”

No kidding, Mads. I also can’t believe Tyler agreed to this. He’s not really the kind to do alpha male type activities. Maybe Victor talked him into it.

I watched in awe and Victor managed to fling the other girl off of her guy. Victor raised his arms in victory. Surprisingly, Tyler was laughing and having a good time.

I shook my head. I can’t believe what I’m seeing. It’s like I don’t even know these two. I looked at Victor, realizing I might have misjudged him.

Just then our eyes locked. He smiled and pointed at me. “Victor, Madison!” he called. “Come on over! Let’s play!”

Madison and I entered the pool and waded to them. 

“Um, Nicole.” I told him. “Aren’t you getting a little carried away?”

“Nonsense!” he said. “I told you to have a little fun, Victor.”

“OK, yeah. Just one game, though.” Madison said.

What? Mads just agreed to this too?

“Fine.” I said. “Mads, do you want top or bottom?”

She looked at me like I had two heads. “Top, duh.”

I realized then how stupid I sounded, as this body is considerablly bigger than Madison.

“Kneel down Vic.” she said.

I knelt down so my shoulders were under water and I could feel Mads jump onto my back and put her legs on my shoulders. I then stood up so Madison was fully out of water.

“We’re ready.” Madison said.

Tyler and I waded closer to each other, as both girls - I mean Mads and Victor - started grabbing each other’s hands, trying to knock each other off.

I could hear Madison giggling, and Victor laughing. I watched Tyler’s reaction to all of this. He was also having fun. Our eyes locked and he smirked at me.

Slowly, Tyler backed away and Mads let go of Vic. Then Tyler charged at me. I was taken by surprise and side stepped out of the way, Madison quickly lost her balance. I held her legs as she slowly got her balance back.

I turned to my right and I saw Kayla still sitting at the side of the pool. She smiled at me and waved. I smiled back, then returned my attention to the game.

OK. Two can play. I charged Tyler, and right as Tyler backed away, I let go of one of Mad’s legs and splashed Tyler in the face.

Tyler grunted and let go of Vic as they both came crashing down into the pool.

I laughed. 

“Victor, what the hell?” Madison said from above.

“What?” I said. “We won.”

“That’s cheating!” she said. “Let me down.”

Ugh. I didn’t want to play this game anyway. I knelt down to let Madison off of my shoulders.

I swam to Tyler. “Ty, I’m sorry.”

“What the hell, dude.” he said.

“I thought it would be funny.”

He didn’t say anything. Victor was drenched and was trying to get the wet strands of hair out of his face.

“Sorry everyone,” I said. “I got carried away.”

“It’s OK, Vic.” Madison said.

“I thought it was funny.” Victor said, giving me a smirk.

I stayed in the pool and watched the three of them wade back to the shallow end. Tyler put his arm around Victor, then grabbed her, i mean his ass.

I followed them from a distance. I felt like such an outsider. Someone else was literally living my life. I also felt an anxiety attack coming on. When they weren’t looking, I grabbed my things and left the pool area.

* * *

Victor

Today was a blast. Having fun at the pool with friends brought me back to the good times I had at high school. I even got closer to Tyler, which I didn’t expect and he didn't try to make a move on me either, which allowed us to casually hang out even more. After hanging out at the pool, Tyler, Mads and I ate dinner at the dining hall. I felt like the center of attention with those two, it’s almost as if they’re competing with each other for my friendship. I’m an introvert, so being the center of attention is draining, and I was really ready to ditch both of them by the end of dinner.

Walking home gave me time to reflect on which one of them I found more attractive.  I think I legitimately am attracted to Madison.  I was attracted to her when I was Victor. Although as him I was largely invisible to her, so I never bothered getting to know her.  Meanwhile I feel like there’s a force drawing me to Tyler. It’s hard to describe. Maybe it’s this body. Tyler is Nicole’s boyfriend after all.  Maybe my mind and body are fighting with each other. Maybe that explains why I’ve been having a hard time with self-pleasure.

Meanwhile, Nicole was nowhere to be seen after the chicken fight at the pool. I expected her to come with us to dinner. I think she was embarrassed at her actions against Tyler.  It made sense.  She did what she would’ve done as Nicole.  She splashed her boyfriend.  But everyone else saw a relative stranger splash Tyler.

I texted her a few times during dinner. But she didn’t respond.

Finally, when I got home, I texted her one last time. “Nicole, we don’t have to have a long conversation. Please just let me know you’re alive or I’m sending everyone over.”

A minute later, she finally texted back. “I’m alive. I don’t want to talk right now.”

I sent her back a “thumbs up” emoji.  Thank God. At least I don't have to worry about her the rest of the night.

But I was still worried. She needs to have some fun, and clearly she didn’t today. I believe she has a form of depression. With no one else in her life right now, it’s my responsibility to make sure she’s OK. She needs to swap back.

I found my body swap notes from the other day. I pulled out the cellphone and started cross checking my research with possible things we can do tomorrow to satisfy some of these ideas. Maybe some of these will be fun too. Maybe find a solution to our body swap AND have some fun at the same time - that would be awesome.

When I was done and happy with my plans, I decided it was time to tend to myself.

I walked into my room. Something caught my eye earlier today when I was in the bikini drawer. I opened it and there it was, tangled around a bikini top - a red ribbon. Is this the infamous red hair tie? 

“Alright Vic.” I said. “Third time’s a charm.”

I wrapped the ribbon around the door knob, shut the door and rolled the desk chair in front of it.

I climbed onto my bed and took off the pool clothes I wore the rest of the evening. Off came the cover up, then the bikini top, then the bottoms.

I looked down and took in my naked body. I slowly exhaled and closed my eyes.

After my conversation with Lexi last night, I decided to try a different approach. An approach I was reluctant to take last night, but willing to give it a try now.

I replayed my kiss with Tyler from last night. Except this time I continued to kiss him. My body responded instantly. I rubbed my nipples with my left hand and let my right hand drive down my body.

Tyler’s lips.. Tyler’s eyes.

My finger found my clit and I let out a moan. The moan took me by surprise, and put me deeper in the fantasy.

I pretended it was Tyler touching my clit. What would his tongue feel like on it? I let out another moan. 

I let my finger sink into my slit. I was wet. I took the wetness and rubbed it on my labia and pretended it was a tongue. I re-dipped my finger and let it glide over the clit.

I nearly jumped from pleasure.

I continued rubbing slowly. My breathing was speeding up.

“Yes.” I moaned.

I was feeling good enough and wet enough to go faster. I could feel my hips start rocking faster so I could push against my fingers.

I could feel it. My first orgasm as a woman. It’s there. Building slowly. I continued to moan. “Yes.” As I was about there, I said his name “Tyler” and I could feel the orgasm crescendo and send waves all over my body. “Oh God!” My legs clamped down on my hand as I let out a whimper.

I sat there motionless while catching my breath. I did it. Third time’s a charm. Lexi was right. I needed an emotional connection to focus on. That emotional connection was Tyler.

It was Tyler. 

I masturbated to images of a guy. Shit. Does that mean I’m gay?